the article below made me ultra guilty. that was the ‘me’ i’ve lost.. nono, not the one about having heart in control. duh.
its the one i lost for more than half a year now. for the lack of job satisfaction, for the lack of drive, the lack of focus..
the ‘me’ that wants to do this and that, achieve this and that..
i need to get that back. i need that momentum. i need to restructure myself.
afterwhich everything else will fall in place nicely, i’m sure.
now, how do i get that back? hahahaha! i think i first need to really fuck care everyone else. it have been a really tedious year so far. my previous job. then a friend and another friend. then myself. then this friend, that friend. then my current job.
my energies are drained by all the wrong source. okay, maybe that’s the problem. let’s start from here..
i know i’ve been saying that a million times, and told a zillion times by those who care, only to have my heart soften and then burning my own time for others. sigh. i will try harder this time.
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By: Brian Tracy
Perhaps the most outwardly identifiable quality of a high performing man or woman is “action orientation.”
Take Time to Think and Plan
Highly productive people take the time to think, plan and set priorities. They then launch quickly and strongly toward their goals and objectives. They work steadily, smoothly and continuously and seem to go through enormous amounts of work in the same time period that the average person spends socializing, wasting time and working on low value activities.
Getting into “Flow”
When you work on high value tasks at a high and continuous level of activity, you can actually enter into an amazing mental state called “flow.” Almost everyone has experienced this at some time. Really successful people are those who get themselves into this state far more often than the average.
In the state of “flow,” which is the highest human state of performance and productivity, something almost miraculous happens to your mind and emotions. You feel elated and clear. Everything you do seems effortless and accurate. You feel happy and energetic. You experience a tremendous sense of calm and personal effectiveness.
Become More Alert and Aware
In the state of “flow,” identified and talked about over the centuries, you actually function on a higher plane of clarity, creativity and competence. You are more sensitive and aware. Your insight and intuition functions with incredible precision. You see the interconnectedness of people and circumstances around you. You often come up with brilliant ideas and insights that enable you to move ahead even more rapidly.
Develop a Sense of Urgency
One of the ways you can trigger this state of flow is by developing a “sense of urgency.” This is an inner drive and desire to get on with the job quickly and get it done fast. This inner drive is an impatience that motivates you to get going and to keep going. A sense of urgency feels very much like racing against yourself.
Create a “Bias for Action”
With this ingrained sense of urgency, you develop a “bias for action.” You take action rather than talking continually about what you are going to do. You focus on specific steps you can take immediately. By employing this technique you concentrate on the things you can do right now to get the results you want and achieve the goals you desire.
Action Exercises
Here are two things you can do immediately to put these ideas into action:
First, select one major task confronting you and launch into it immediately. Don’t hesitate. Move fast.
Second, start doing this every morning, first thing, until it becomes a habit.
(credits to joyce. original source, unknown.)


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