Seriously, what have I done? All the efforts.. Gone?
I resisted the urge to go.. I concentrate on what I should be doing, to worry and focus on more important things..
But just a few times and I am here thinking about him again.
Not like I don’t have other things to worry about. I don’t know am I just unlucky or what? Cleared so many rounds of interview only to get stuck at final interview for a few companies.
But me being me, I don’t like the fact ‘its luck’ so I started to think its me. And when I can’t figure out what I did wrongly at the final interview, I’m starting to doubt my capabilities. I’m starting feel useless..
I don’t know if its cos I’m at the fragile stage that all this nonsense came to me again. Or was it cos of seeing him again. Or simply cos previously he was attached and I just keep curbing the feeling. Or all.
But whatever the case, I am already very bothered about my own career directions.. And now I’m having him occupying my mind again? Awesome. *roll eyes*
say what?