I have so many things going on in my mind that I can’t simply update my status, so here it goes..
- I feel like packing my luggage and leave.
- I’m so tired, my whole body is aching! 
- Status and twitter have taken over blog that everyone no longer blog. very sad thing, I feel. Blog is more elaborated, more feelings.. Status is just.. Too ‘commercialized’.
- What do you think of average of 25odd year old guys having plushies/soft toy in the office? Not just 1 guy have it, but 3. Totally not cool.. Not at all manly. ><
- I think I'm not in the same frequency as those in the office. I am glad its a 1mth assignment. Please let me get a job where I belong.
- I so feel like turning back time so I can stay longer in the bank and not quit for a fucked up job. But if I hadn't quit and went over, I won't know it was that fucked up. So, I think its better to fast forward and see how I tided through these period.
- I always say I never regret quitting without a job. But I have never admitted how badly the experience traumatized me. Work phobia. The thought of working freaks me out when I was looking for a job.. I feel useless. I didn't know what I can do. I was not confident I can do what I thought I could anymore. And that, I think I keep screwing up interviews because, who would buy it if you had doubts yourself? 'Can you do it?' 'Er… Yah……………. I………………… Can.' WHO WILL BELIEVE?!
- I think the fact that I am openly saying this means I am recovering and moving on, which is damn good thing. But I wasted many chance in many banks, so I have to wait for some time before I can reapply. Eeeeeks.
- Though halfway there are people that distracts me, and I have good feelings for.. The attention still went back to him. I still miss him. But at least now, my mind is over my heart.. Most of the time. Haha. When I see him.. Then its hard to say..
- I didn't come up with any resolutions this year.
- I need to regain all my determination, confidence, and everything else.
- Thank 'you' for always criticizing me.. (Or is giving feedback a better way to put it?) From hairstyle to clothes to shoes to anything and almost everything? They always say that when someone gives you feedback or criticize, its all for your own good. It scrap my self esteems off, bit by bit. Maybe it came together with the period that I lost my confidence so everything was accumulated and totally killed me. But its okay, I learned to be more self conscious, I try to dress up and look better more. And I got to learn it is important to balance praises and criticizes/negative feedbacks.
- I've never feel so much pressure to 'answer' to someone before. Not even my mother, not even my boyfriend(when I have one). Its amazing, its so not me.. But fret not, cos I am learning to break free from it.
- I am so freaking tired, I think I should stop.
say what?